My Own

I'm alone in a castle of my own mind.
Of my own pain.
Of my own despair.
I'm in a castle of my own creation, and all I want to do is leave.
I want to taste the clean fresh air of the outdoors, swim the rivers that start high in the mountains, and feel the earth between my toes.
But I am stuck in a castle of my own mind, of my own pain, and of my own despair.
I'm locked in a castle, alone.
A place that perhaps once held great things and housed great people, is once again beginning to crumble.
Fraying at the edges.
But to stop a dress from fraying, you burn the edges, and what good would that do for this castle of cold stone.
I would still be alone. Even if the walls ceased to crumble.
And what good is a castle when you're alone?

.

I feel I'm alone in this pit of despair

Darkness

There is darkness within every heart, and Every heart is capable of creating pain.

Yours

These are the words that I'm too scared to say

These are the feelings that fill in my days

These are the times that I cherish and keep

And these are the love notes that get me to sleep.

Yours are the eyes that can see the true me

Yours are the words that can help set me free

Yours is the love that can make my heart warm

And yours is the love that stops my world being torn

Alive

"At the core I'm a nervous person,

But you make me feel at Ease"

"And I'm a fairly depressive person,

But you make me feel Alive"

♥

Mislead

Love is a harsh word. Use it wrong and you're hurting the life of another.
Is that fair? Is it fair that we are foolish.
Do we really 'love' our friends, or do we only Love our partner.
Can we actually 'love' a band, a song, a sport.
Does anyone understand what love actually is anymore
or are we all mislead

Core

I am your Dreams

I am you Fears

I am your Nightmares

I am the core of your hatred

And your best friend

Closed Eyes

Shut your eyes to all around,
Close your ears and hear no sound,
Be alone and out of sight
to lull the pain and ease the fight

All my life

If all my life's in trust to you,
Would you still tear my heart in two?
If your heart aligns with mine,
Will it stay this way in time?
If I should place my hand in yours,
Would I come out with bumps and sores?
If I lay my head on your chest,
Will all my fears be put to rest?
If I should give you all my heart,
Please do not tear it all apart.

Warm

The only warmth I feel is that of the tears on my cheeks. The only happiness I feel is that of others. All I really want is the safety of a strong embrace. To be in the arms of another and feel at home.

Lavender

Did you ever close your eyes to feel the ground beneath your feet,
or stop listening to the freeway just to gaze upon the stars?
Have you ever known what it is to stop feeling
or to taste the rising sun?
Did you ever pass the roses to find the lavender instead
because in all of its simplicity, it smells just as sweet.

Empty Page

An empty page, a solemn cry,
A lack of words when tears run dry.
When all is lost and none is good
What light could not, the darkness could.
Candles flicker lusty light
that makes us love the black of night.
A loss of self, a dusty tomb
a grave we dig for ones own doom.
For who are we? Why are we here?
With lack of purpose, growing fear
Why are we here, what can we do
When all our hearts are torn in two.
An empty page, a solemn cry,
Do we live of should we die