Edge of Infinity

Alone we stand, on the edge of infinity
infinitely alone.
When the blade comes down, we are but singular organisms
we have no bonds
we have no ties.
We stand alone.
In the true juices of what we are
we must stand on our own
and we must melt into ourselves.
Do we revel in the darkness
or crumble under gravity
do we slip into the deep
do we lose everything we ever thought we were?
Does everything we ever worked for, faught for,
does it amount to nothing?
How much of a beating can you take on your bones
when all of your skin is shattered..
At the edge of infinity, alone you will stand
At the edge of infinity, with no one but yourself

No Nations

"There are no nations! There is only humanity. And if we don't come to understand that right soon, there will be no nations, because there will be no humanity."

-Isaac Asimov, I, Asimov

Swimming

I'm going swimming in a sea of my own
a sea of few people, of cold hearted stone
I'm going diving in the depth of the deep
where the pressure is crushing and the little lights sleep
I'm going searching in corners of rocks
for my hopes and my dreams that got lost on the docks
And I am collecting the hope and the love
I'm taking it with me to blue skies above

Alas I arise to a sky of black night
But it's littered with twinkles, my glorious lights
Each one is beaming with life in its eye
This night is no danger - my hope's in the sky
My cold hearted ocean had little for me
but to test my resilience til light did I see
You'll not find your happiness down underneath
You must look up above you, if hope do you seek

Random Acts of Kindness

“Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you.”
- Princess Diana

Embrace your time

Where will the future take us?
Nobody really knows.
If only one thing is certain,
Its that our time comes and goes.
So live, love and learn to embrace it
find your way down your path
Reach for the heavens above you
And never forget to laugh


- A combined effort of myself and a person very close to me

Fruits That Grow in Vulnerability

There is a great difference between successfulness and fruitfulness. Success comes from strength, control, and respectability. A successful person has the energy to create something, to keep control over its development, and to make it available in large quantities. Success brings many rewards and often fame.
Fruits, however, come from weakness and vulnerability. And fruits are unique. A child is the fruit conceived in vulnerability, community is the fruit born through shared brokenness, and intimacy is the fruit that grows through touching one another's wounds. Let's remind one another that what brings us true joy is not successfulness but fruitfulness.

-Henri Nouwen

Bullies

I am my own big bully
My own cruelest voice
The voice may well be folly
but it fights against each choice.
Every act's a burden
Every move is wrong
Decisions - always painful
I never shall belong
For I'm my greatest critic
With ever threatening force
You will not hear me speaking
But my silence brings remorse

A new year

A new year, a new day
I'm wasting my time away
Each moment, each minute
My time here is finite.
Alas I am wasting,
Few risks I am taking,
Alone I am laying
Not working, Nor playing.
A new year, a new day
I'll waste all my time away
Alone in my madness
my numbness, my sadness

Together Alone

On my own, for once, I'll be alone
Away, I'll be. Away from home.
On my own, not quite prepared
to do something I'dve never dared
To jump the nest, to dive below
from risky heights, the plan will go.

So much awaits
So much to fate
I'm hoping my new year is great

I'll be alone, this much is true
But I will be alone with You

Hello, this is me.

Hi, my name is Pandora

I'm stupid

and I'm unbrave

I am a doormat

and a fool

I am a coward

and a loner

Hello, this is me

My name is Pandora

Patience

‎"Patience does not mean to passively endure. 
It means to be farsighted enough to trust the end result of a process.
It means to look at the thorn and see the rose, to look at the night and see the dawn.
Impatience means to be so shortsighted as to not be able to see the outcome. 
...know that time is needed for the crescent moon to become full." 
-Rumi

Future viewing

I do not know the future
I know I never will
I try to gaze upon it
but it's wild, changing, thin
I do not know the future
to say other is a lie
but I'll make my future happy
or I know, at least, I'll try

Wind

I am a tortured soul
blowing away in the wind
Torn between the currents
Fighting to find a path
But in the wind's grasp
you fight first for your survival
second for your sanity
third for your search of beauty

In the wind's grasp
you will be beaten
you will be damaged
But in the wind's grasp
you can look out
above the trees
across the mountains
and down the valleys
In the wind's grasp
you may be scattered
you may be broken
but you will once again be whole

In the wind's grasp
you must learn to let go
you must turn in the reigns
you must learn to just be

At that point
the wind will free you
to float upon it
and you will bathe
in the beauty
that once tortured you
You will drift
and you will smile
and once again
you will breathe easy

Still

I can feel my head throbbing
in the madness of my life.
Still as I may sit
my heart still pumps
my blood keeps moving
my head still throbs.

I can feel my head spinning
when I'm standing in the strife
Much as I keep moving
my feet feel pinned
my eyes keep blurring
my head still spins

I can feel my body tensing
each word is like a knife
Forget kind thinking
my heart still burns
I am still lonely
when will be my turn?

Country

"He died defending his country!" 
On foreign land
with a gun in hand
he was fighting to kill people he never knew.
Where is the purpose, the pride and the beauty
in a death from another mans fight

Fate

I cry for the fate of humanity
the only hope of change lies in the ability for all people to unite and think clearly
People are blind to the opportunities for change that are in every move we have ever made
we are a race fated to our own failure
to our own extinction
We are a race of fools
chasing the things that hold us back

Do not worry

Do not think about what was
or worry about what can be. 
Focus on what is now my dear, 
what is now is me
-Majnu

Loops

I am caught in a loop, a loop of awful things
of awful pains
of awful suffering
A loop that brings every thought to the same experience
an experience none should have
Each thought leaves with the same images
with the same feelings
with the same hurt
With less acceptance
and less faith
and less control
I am here
Rocking
Lulling myself into music that won't shake me
speaking words I will soon regret
regardless of the commitments of the tomorrow
I am here
Alone in a loop I thought I'd left behind

Your own

You have to realise that in your life, you have to put yourself first.
Don't expect anyone else to because each person has their own life to live.
The only constant thing about your entire life is that it is Yours
You are the only one to live it so it's you that you need to look after.
Put yourself first.
It's not selfish, it's essential.

Here's to The Crazy Ones, The Misfits, The Rebels

“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round heads in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them. But the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

Jack Kerouac