No Words

There's no words for this feeling This lulling deep inside
Theres no way to convey this, but its something I can't hide
I feel as if I'm flying, my heart is on a high
My face reveals the way I feel, There's love in every sigh
I love the way this feels now, the calming of my nerves
Like every thing that comes my way is just a minor curve
There is only one for me who makes me feel this way
I wish that I could be with him at night and in the day
Theres no words for this feeling, this caring, calming love
but it's surely from the heavens, he's my gift from above

Times of doubt

He'll kiss my hand, he'll hold me tight, he'll keep me safe and warm,
He'll love me for a lifetime and he'll help me through the storms.
He'll have to know me inside out, he'll have to see my soul
to help me in the biggest way and fill the throbbing hole.
He will be so very handsome, from the inside shining out
he'll be there to stand up for me when I'm in times of doubt.
I don't know when I'll find him, or if he will be mine,
but love with him could surely last the strongest test of time.

Dreamland

Oh dearest king Leon, off lost in his head.
Adrift in a dreamland awake in his bed
the strangest of subjects, he dreams of great tales
of flying through treetops upon twisted gales
direction not chosen, irregular juts
swooping and swerving and landing in ruts
lost of all senses and wandering forests
he shrinks to the ground and lays down upon it
delving in further, he reaches in deep
finding quiet and love hes intending to keep
for no greater value is a break from the crown
then to lay in a forest as rain buckets down
his crown weighs him heavy, of silver and gold
but such feelings are something he'd rather with-hold
away from the busy demands and the pressure
a day to be normal can make it all better
but awakened he is now, from dreams and from magic
returned to his day-job of pressure and panic
but return he will to his fantasy dreamland
where all is as wished, spontaneous and unplanned.

Let

A final breath, the last thing hits
A gasp of air, a final fit
To pouring tears, from angry tones
My mind is scattered, lost a home
The spinning arrow finally rests
But the mark remains upon my chest
The final words, to let me go
But why today to let me know
The day is clear, the skies are blue
Now blue is all my heart sees too
It soon will pass, I know this much
But I still wish I could feel your touch
I needed you, you helped me live
You scarcely took and loved to give
You loved me always, held me dear
Today you swept my heart with fear
But I understand, I do know why
But none the less, tears, I do cry
I loved you then, I love you now
You let me go to help me down
If you love somebody, you set them free
That’s why you’re doing it to me
But you taught me love and gave me home
I’ll forget you not, in my heart you’re sewn

Still

The stillness, it is chilling, my eyes begin to droop,
I'm pushing down the feelings that will keep me in a loop.
The water runs together, the ends will always meet,
But it's different when it's rolling from my eyes down to my feet.
Your arms are warm and open, your heart is made of gold,
When you are not around with me the world can seem so cold.
I wish that you were with me now, I wish that you were here,
To hold me safe and keep me sane and wipe away the tears.
I don't know where you are now, if you're happy, if you're safe,
I don't even know if you're still walking in this plane,
But I do know that I love you, I know I always will,
And in all my foolish, cruel mistakes, my heart is with you still..

Love

Let all your worries just wither away
Embrace the freedoms we get everyday
Stop looking so hard at things that are not now
For all that we need is here on the prowl
Quiet your mind and embrace every moment
For love is here. Let the world know it
The past is just daunting, it haunts me to look
And the future will happen, it'll be it's own book
But we need not dwell, and we need not predict
We need not judge ourselves or those that don't fit
For the "I am not sufficient as I am"
Is purely a fear and myth and a scam
Let us silence our minds and be free once again
Without needing to run or pretend
Sensations we're given, they're there to be felt
But when it leaves on its own accord that's all that is dealt
We can continue to live and embrace every moment
The love's all around us, if only we'd know it.

Umbrella

It seems it’s planned for me to suffer and prone for me to hurt.
It seems that it is casual to throw me in the dirt.
It seems that in my hopefulness I once again could see,
That hope is just a fairytale. Never meant for me.
I’d like to think I could be happy, to smile every day,
But every time I turn around a frown is in my way.
The universe has planned this, all of it for me.
To pick me up and push me down. To try to make me see.
The world we’re in is crippling, it’s crushing down our souls.
It’s pushing us between things and tearing down our goals.
All this is so excessive. It’s so hard to accept.
When promises are trash talk and only lies are kept.
This is a never ending circle of painful burns and scars,
Where nothing more but meteors is falling from the stars.
May my frown be by umbrella. Preparing me for worse
And to help the coming rainstorm be a slightly weaker curse.

Ruins

Laying in the ruins of my own mistakes, Surrounded by the consequences of my own wrong doings, I feel like it would be only a pin to break my back.
I should be happy. I should appreciate everything I have.
I try to be happy, but happiness doesn't last.
Often it's happiness itself that is the pin to break our backs for it is what we have to leave at the door when we return home. If home is where the heart is, I don't wish to be here any longer. I do not wish to be shattered under the pressure of my own loses.
What will it take for us to remain content, for us to be able to survive the day without a feeling of failure, without the realisation that all we wish to be shall never sustain.
How is it that you can dream so sweet among the reminants of all you never wanted when every dream of mine is pain. My every ray of light, a tragedy, for it is the tragedy's that make me truely happy. It is only when I fall to my last thread that I can feel even the slightest bit better, that I can try to remember what happy is suposed to mean.
The single pin that can break a back is no more than the same pin we find in recovery.
The ruins, my only refuge and my broken home.

..Happiness is a vicious cycle, a final mistake..

Happiness

is both the Light,

And the Darkness.

Failure

The only failure we are ever involved in is one that we created on our own. The only things we succeed in are the things we try for. The only times we trip are when we aren’t paying attention, and its then that someone is there to catch your fall, when you just stop caring anymore. Just when you think the whole world has lost all meaning, that the entire universe could fold and it wouldn’t make a difference, someone comes along. Someone helps you and holds you and makes you feel better, and what is there then, but happiness that you can only hope will last. Never should a person cross the line of no return, for it is then that our lives truly change, it is then that we realise we made the mistake, it is then that we know we shouldn’t have done what was, and then that we learn that every mistake and failure is what makes us ourselves, and only then can we realise that this is why this stranger stepped in, this is why there was someone to help us up, to hold us, to make the days worthwhile, for we are nothing without mistakes.

Love

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Love Game

11 August 2009

“Give me love, Give me love, Love me well and true
Come on baby, Love me back, Love like I love you
I want you now, right here with me, Hun I love you, can’t you see?
Come on babe don’t break my heart, it’s with me you should be”
It shall not happen this time; I will not play your games
I will not boost your ego, I won’t bring myself pain
For you are just a cruel man, a player and a prick
Your heart is nothing more than a big red hunk of brick
You do not understand me, you never even tried
But today I realised, today I did decide.
See me not tomorrow, do not ring my phone
Don’t come crawling back to me, don’t you whinge and moan
I’m done with you, I’m through with this, I’m making my own way
Freedom, Love and Happiness, in future, mine will stay.

A Thousand Words

10 August 2009

A thousand words
A single line
I loved you at that point in time
You hurt me then
I’m yours no more
It was in two, my heart, you tore
You saw me there
You watched me cry
You waited ‘til my eyes ran dry
You helped me up
You rubbed my back
But in your eyes compassion lacked
You sung to me
In words so sweet
Through all your lies this was your feat
But I saw through
Your passive lies
You watched as I broke through your ties
I found you then
I left you down
Your eyes locked on my empty frown
I spoke to you
In words so sweet
Returned to you my heart throb, deep
Remember me
Remember this
You nor your sweet words I’ll miss