Let

A final breath, the last thing hits
A gasp of air, a final fit
To pouring tears, from angry tones
My mind is scattered, lost a home
The spinning arrow finally rests
But the mark remains upon my chest
The final words, to let me go
But why today to let me know
The day is clear, the skies are blue
Now blue is all my heart sees too
It soon will pass, I know this much
But I still wish I could feel your touch
I needed you, you helped me live
You scarcely took and loved to give
You loved me always, held me dear
Today you swept my heart with fear
But I understand, I do know why
But none the less, tears, I do cry
I loved you then, I love you now
You let me go to help me down
If you love somebody, you set them free
That’s why you’re doing it to me
But you taught me love and gave me home
I’ll forget you not, in my heart you’re sewn

Still

The stillness, it is chilling, my eyes begin to droop,
I'm pushing down the feelings that will keep me in a loop.
The water runs together, the ends will always meet,
But it's different when it's rolling from my eyes down to my feet.
Your arms are warm and open, your heart is made of gold,
When you are not around with me the world can seem so cold.
I wish that you were with me now, I wish that you were here,
To hold me safe and keep me sane and wipe away the tears.
I don't know where you are now, if you're happy, if you're safe,
I don't even know if you're still walking in this plane,
But I do know that I love you, I know I always will,
And in all my foolish, cruel mistakes, my heart is with you still..

Love

Let all your worries just wither away
Embrace the freedoms we get everyday
Stop looking so hard at things that are not now
For all that we need is here on the prowl
Quiet your mind and embrace every moment
For love is here. Let the world know it
The past is just daunting, it haunts me to look
And the future will happen, it'll be it's own book
But we need not dwell, and we need not predict
We need not judge ourselves or those that don't fit
For the "I am not sufficient as I am"
Is purely a fear and myth and a scam
Let us silence our minds and be free once again
Without needing to run or pretend
Sensations we're given, they're there to be felt
But when it leaves on its own accord that's all that is dealt
We can continue to live and embrace every moment
The love's all around us, if only we'd know it.

Umbrella

It seems it’s planned for me to suffer and prone for me to hurt.
It seems that it is casual to throw me in the dirt.
It seems that in my hopefulness I once again could see,
That hope is just a fairytale. Never meant for me.
I’d like to think I could be happy, to smile every day,
But every time I turn around a frown is in my way.
The universe has planned this, all of it for me.
To pick me up and push me down. To try to make me see.
The world we’re in is crippling, it’s crushing down our souls.
It’s pushing us between things and tearing down our goals.
All this is so excessive. It’s so hard to accept.
When promises are trash talk and only lies are kept.
This is a never ending circle of painful burns and scars,
Where nothing more but meteors is falling from the stars.
May my frown be by umbrella. Preparing me for worse
And to help the coming rainstorm be a slightly weaker curse.

Ruins

Laying in the ruins of my own mistakes, Surrounded by the consequences of my own wrong doings, I feel like it would be only a pin to break my back.
I should be happy. I should appreciate everything I have.
I try to be happy, but happiness doesn't last.
Often it's happiness itself that is the pin to break our backs for it is what we have to leave at the door when we return home. If home is where the heart is, I don't wish to be here any longer. I do not wish to be shattered under the pressure of my own loses.
What will it take for us to remain content, for us to be able to survive the day without a feeling of failure, without the realisation that all we wish to be shall never sustain.
How is it that you can dream so sweet among the reminants of all you never wanted when every dream of mine is pain. My every ray of light, a tragedy, for it is the tragedy's that make me truely happy. It is only when I fall to my last thread that I can feel even the slightest bit better, that I can try to remember what happy is suposed to mean.
The single pin that can break a back is no more than the same pin we find in recovery.
The ruins, my only refuge and my broken home.

..Happiness is a vicious cycle, a final mistake..

Happiness

is both the Light,

And the Darkness.

Failure

The only failure we are ever involved in is one that we created on our own. The only things we succeed in are the things we try for. The only times we trip are when we aren’t paying attention, and its then that someone is there to catch your fall, when you just stop caring anymore. Just when you think the whole world has lost all meaning, that the entire universe could fold and it wouldn’t make a difference, someone comes along. Someone helps you and holds you and makes you feel better, and what is there then, but happiness that you can only hope will last. Never should a person cross the line of no return, for it is then that our lives truly change, it is then that we realise we made the mistake, it is then that we know we shouldn’t have done what was, and then that we learn that every mistake and failure is what makes us ourselves, and only then can we realise that this is why this stranger stepped in, this is why there was someone to help us up, to hold us, to make the days worthwhile, for we are nothing without mistakes.

Love

L etting
O ur hearts
V enture
E ver further

Love Game

11 August 2009

“Give me love, Give me love, Love me well and true
Come on baby, Love me back, Love like I love you
I want you now, right here with me, Hun I love you, can’t you see?
Come on babe don’t break my heart, it’s with me you should be”
It shall not happen this time; I will not play your games
I will not boost your ego, I won’t bring myself pain
For you are just a cruel man, a player and a prick
Your heart is nothing more than a big red hunk of brick
You do not understand me, you never even tried
But today I realised, today I did decide.
See me not tomorrow, do not ring my phone
Don’t come crawling back to me, don’t you whinge and moan
I’m done with you, I’m through with this, I’m making my own way
Freedom, Love and Happiness, in future, mine will stay.

A Thousand Words

10 August 2009

A thousand words
A single line
I loved you at that point in time
You hurt me then
I’m yours no more
It was in two, my heart, you tore
You saw me there
You watched me cry
You waited ‘til my eyes ran dry
You helped me up
You rubbed my back
But in your eyes compassion lacked
You sung to me
In words so sweet
Through all your lies this was your feat
But I saw through
Your passive lies
You watched as I broke through your ties
I found you then
I left you down
Your eyes locked on my empty frown
I spoke to you
In words so sweet
Returned to you my heart throb, deep
Remember me
Remember this
You nor your sweet words I’ll miss

Sweet Lover

10 August 2009

Her eyes, Decadant Jewels adorning the midnight sky,
Her hair, Glistening like a thousand water droplets under the light of the moon,
Her heart, Heaven itself, Tarnished only by the crueltys of man.
Never has she seen me as the man I wish to be.
Never shall she see me as her love, her joy and her meaning,
For I am nothing more than a solemn object, far from view.
Never seen, Never heard, Never loved as I love another yet forever infinate.
May the air she breathes be as pure and sweet as my love for her,
May her life be as lovely as a velvet red rose,
and may she someday feel for me as I have always felt for her.


Credit to Andrew for his inspiration~

Decide

9 August 2009

Kill me, save me, forever change my day
Hurt me, help me, wonder if I’ll stay
Push me, catch me, see how far I’ll fall
Rush me, stop me, see if I’ll go at all
Test me, Try me, Find out if I can
Hear me, Ignore me, Work out who I am
Keep me, Change me, Find out what you like
With me or against me, is it for love or strife

Soul Searching

In all my life I've never known a person such as me,
Looking for connections in the things that wander free.
Ever should I find someone so intricate as I,
Mistakes and faults and failures would simply float on by.
I'm looking for myself now, I'm trying to find my soul,
I need someone who understands to help me reach my goal.
I cannot see inside of me like I see through other's walls,
And when I reach the higher powers I don't seem to hear their calls.
They're muffled with my own thoughts, of who I think I'd be,
I need a new connection as it's only them who see.
My spirit is within me; Has been through every life.
A whole persona still retained through hardships and through strife.
I wish to know what she knows, I wish to know her name,
I wish to be completely her, To be one an the same.