Together Alone

On my own, for once, I'll be alone
Away, I'll be. Away from home.
On my own, not quite prepared
to do something I'dve never dared
To jump the nest, to dive below
from risky heights, the plan will go.

So much awaits
So much to fate
I'm hoping my new year is great

I'll be alone, this much is true
But I will be alone with You

Hello, this is me.

Hi, my name is Pandora

I'm stupid

and I'm unbrave

I am a doormat

and a fool

I am a coward

and a loner

Hello, this is me

My name is Pandora

Patience

‎"Patience does not mean to passively endure. 
It means to be farsighted enough to trust the end result of a process.
It means to look at the thorn and see the rose, to look at the night and see the dawn.
Impatience means to be so shortsighted as to not be able to see the outcome. 
...know that time is needed for the crescent moon to become full." 
-Rumi

Future viewing

I do not know the future
I know I never will
I try to gaze upon it
but it's wild, changing, thin
I do not know the future
to say other is a lie
but I'll make my future happy
or I know, at least, I'll try

Wind

I am a tortured soul
blowing away in the wind
Torn between the currents
Fighting to find a path
But in the wind's grasp
you fight first for your survival
second for your sanity
third for your search of beauty

In the wind's grasp
you will be beaten
you will be damaged
But in the wind's grasp
you can look out
above the trees
across the mountains
and down the valleys
In the wind's grasp
you may be scattered
you may be broken
but you will once again be whole

In the wind's grasp
you must learn to let go
you must turn in the reigns
you must learn to just be

At that point
the wind will free you
to float upon it
and you will bathe
in the beauty
that once tortured you
You will drift
and you will smile
and once again
you will breathe easy

Still

I can feel my head throbbing
in the madness of my life.
Still as I may sit
my heart still pumps
my blood keeps moving
my head still throbs.

I can feel my head spinning
when I'm standing in the strife
Much as I keep moving
my feet feel pinned
my eyes keep blurring
my head still spins

I can feel my body tensing
each word is like a knife
Forget kind thinking
my heart still burns
I am still lonely
when will be my turn?

Country

"He died defending his country!" 
On foreign land
with a gun in hand
he was fighting to kill people he never knew.
Where is the purpose, the pride and the beauty
in a death from another mans fight

Fate

I cry for the fate of humanity
the only hope of change lies in the ability for all people to unite and think clearly
People are blind to the opportunities for change that are in every move we have ever made
we are a race fated to our own failure
to our own extinction
We are a race of fools
chasing the things that hold us back

Do not worry

Do not think about what was
or worry about what can be. 
Focus on what is now my dear, 
what is now is me
-Majnu

Loops

I am caught in a loop, a loop of awful things
of awful pains
of awful suffering
A loop that brings every thought to the same experience
an experience none should have
Each thought leaves with the same images
with the same feelings
with the same hurt
With less acceptance
and less faith
and less control
I am here
Rocking
Lulling myself into music that won't shake me
speaking words I will soon regret
regardless of the commitments of the tomorrow
I am here
Alone in a loop I thought I'd left behind

Your own

You have to realise that in your life, you have to put yourself first.
Don't expect anyone else to because each person has their own life to live.
The only constant thing about your entire life is that it is Yours
You are the only one to live it so it's you that you need to look after.
Put yourself first.
It's not selfish, it's essential.

Here's to The Crazy Ones, The Misfits, The Rebels

“Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round heads in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them. But the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”

Jack Kerouac

I am but me

I am but me, I'm no one else
I'm part of no collection, don't put me on a shelf
I am but me, I'm no one else
Don't ask me to change, I can only be myself

Conflict

I shrink back from the fighting of my inner self
Conflict holds no happiness, no warm possibilities
I run from conflict
But there is conflict in my soul.
The selfless is truly selfless, the selfish just wishes a few things from me
The selfish withing, she is not truely selfish. She is balanced
But she is heavily outweighed by the selfless as she fights for everything I have ever believed in
She fights for great things. She fights for equality of all people, for the safety of every child
She is me, but alas I am human too.
Every human has a heart, every human needs love
The selfless would sacrifice everything I have ever had to achieve my dreams
but the selfish longs for love along with it.
I am conflicted, I wish someday to have both

spirit

Fulfilling my dreams will satisfy my spirit,
but what of the spirit if the heart is alone?

Minority

As you are reading this, from your first world country
I want you to stop and think, I want you to realise that it is We who are the minority.
It is we with easy access to means of communication, to cellphones, to internet
We with soap, toothpaste and clean water
We with full stomachs and warm houses
It is we with easy access to health care
who are the minority.
What do you do with your spare cash? Do you throw it away on food you don't need, don't finish?
Do you spend it on a toy you know you will never play with?
Do you buy designer clothes you could get for a normal price in the other store, just for something as silly as a label?
That 5 dollars could buy 5 kilos of fruit in Vietnam.
It could buy hundreds of pens for less fortunate children to learn with.
That 5 dollars could help bring clean water to a community in need,
There are so many better things we could do with that 5 dollar note
and if we, the minority, all just gave a few dollars, perhaps poverty could begin to cease

Dream

"A dream is only an idea
until you put it on paper
Then it is a goal"

Rise

Don't bring a man to his knees 

if you know not 

how to help him rise again

Dear world

Dear world
please inspire me to believe you are good again
please convince me there are lots of good people
please show me I mean something
please remind me to be happy
please don't leave me on my own again
please do not force me to hide
is it truely cold outside
or is it just cold to me

Future

Whatever does the future hold?
If to find out, we must grow old.
In every turn and every fold
we must be strong, we must be bold.
What things will, in future, be?
Will my life be full and free?
Will you still be here with me?
As we grow old, perhaps we'll see

Two

Welcome to the glorious minefield of Love
where safety is none but a myth
Find one with whom you wish to be
and tread softly on your trip

There is no clear beginning
we hope there is no end
Watch the ground you walk on
not for many, do active bombs bend

If you wish to walk the minefield
be mindful of all you do
what you say, how you act, its all counts now
you are not just one, but a part of two

My heart

If I put my heart in your hands
will you cherish it, will you love it?
Will you keep it soft and warm,
will you nurture it ever onward?

If I put my heart in your hands
will my heart then be fulfilled?
Will my life get only better,
will I flourish, will I bloom?

Rivers

Rivers - The veins of the Earth

NegaSelf

NegaSelf: The pessimistic, over-reactive defense mechanism I have obtained.
Activates under: Stress or threat, of medium or strong degree. Sometimes appears at mild levels.
Effects: Negative thoughts of disbelief and self-hate that lead to the isolation of the self and shutting of one's face.

Human

What is there left to believe in when all you can hear are sirens
drowning out the chirping of birds
wind whipping at all that wishes to stand
and challenging all that thinks it has a purpose

Where are we to go when our homes are broken
when all we ever thought we had is taken away
where are we to go with no light to guide us
walking blind in the dark and eternal night that is our life

Who are we to lean on when there's no one to see
when everyone is too frightened, too petrified to speak
if all people cower in the corners of the darkness
what is the point of being human at all

Compassion

Open your eyes and see the world before you
See the suffering and the pain in the eyes of others
See the bones through the skin of the starving child
See disease spread through cities like rapid fire

Open your heart to the wounded
Bring them back to health
I am a creature of compassion
Let love be all your wealth

The best of me

We must be the best "me" we can be
Change starts with us and life is so precious
Love and be loved
smell the flowers in spring
Be all that you are
Regret not a thing

Change

To change the world would not be so hard if each and every human would look towards themselves.
As was once said, "We must be the change we wish to see in the world" and there really isn't a better way to say it.
Be the change you wish to say, be the example, be the role model.
Show the world how you think it should be done and do it filled with kindness.
The world wouldn't be so hard to change
If only we'd all pitch in.

Experience

Strange how experience shapes us
How it shows us things we know not
Funny how much it can change us
How it can help us grow, or help us rot
It can make us a better person
It can make us bitter at heart
It can make us fragile and timid
But always different than at the start

Selfless

Selfless little me
but does it set me free?
Selfless little me
Selfish, I'd like to be
Just one night for me
But I'm selfless, always will be.

Focus

When all that I have is emotion
And rational walked out the door
When the walls of my brain have been damaged
things start to get out of hand.
All of my life seems to crumble
but a boulder beneath my feet
It's slippery so I must focus
Or slip and fall into the deep.

Crowning Grace

"Love is the crowning grace of humanity,
the holiest right of the soul,
the golden link which binds us to duty and truth,
the redeeming principle that chiefly reconciles the heart of life
and is prophetic of eternal good"
- Francesco Petrarch

I have a long way to go..

Coward

I'm not selfish for making the occasional choice for myself
but whenever I do, thats all it feels like.
I can't do anything without feeling selfish anymore.
I am a pushover
and what's worse than that
is that I am a coward too...

I'm sorry

I'm sorry my heart did not fall for yours
that I hurt you, left a scar
I'm sorry my heart looked to someone else
that I'm going to hurt you more
I'm sorry my brain did not quite compute
and I dug myself in a hole
And I'm sorry I cannot change how I feel
but in my life I must be first
I'm sorry that I have been too scared to say
to tell you things you should have known
I'm sorry I couldn't make up my mind
some things must be done on my own
I hope that you won't be too angry
that you won't look at me with hate
I am sorry for what I am feeling
but its my life, my heart, and my brain

Command

"When the mind commands the body, the body obeys
But when the mind commands the mind, the mind repels"
- Dune, Frank Herbert

And perhaps more importantly, the heart will never listen

Brave

Sometimes in life we have to do things that terrify us
a new job
a new city
a new country
Things that can shake us to the bone
Bravery is being scared out of your mind and doing it anyway
These are the things that make us stronger

We Are

We are the human and the mutant
We are the weak who build the strong
We are the liars who burn our own truths
We aspire for right, yet choose to be wrong
We are the human and the mutant
We are the kind face of the cruel
We are live to fulfil our nightmares
We are mortal in search of immortal fuel

Sword

The pen is only mightier than the sword when the ego rules the soul

Alone

I feel as if the world fails to move around me
as if I were entirely alone
in a sea of black.
By my eyes betray me as I watch the world around me
though still
forever moving, forever changing, forever aging
as I do.
Time passes
But it is as if I were alone
and time passes ever so slowly

Numbers

A number is just a number.
There is a number for your age
A number for your weight
A number for your salary
A number for your test scoring
A number for your placing in a competition

But the number isn't the point.
The point is that you are alive, so Live.
Number don't make you who you are.
A number is just a number,
don't let it define you.
There is nothing wrong

Leap of faith

Sometimes there is nothing better to do than to just jump
Fall through a leap of faith
and hope that you land in something soft.
And if you're really, really lucky,
Maybe someone will catch you
And maybe, just maybe, they'll capture your heart

Decide

'Tis your choice to make
and my choice to wait
but I cannot decide
and I must not mistake.
Each day is a new light,
each night fills with cold
If I'd only decide
If only I were bold

Skin

I just want you to know that you are a beautiful and valuable person.
It doesn't matter the colour of your skin or your eyes
It doesn't matter what your clothes are made of (or if you wear no clothes at all)
It doesn't matter where you live, or where you're from,
And it certainly doesn't matter how many zero's are in your salary.
Smile and be true to yourself. Let people love you for who you are
If they still want to hate you, then they probably aren't worth it anyway.
Life can be trivial and we all know it.
Best just make the most of it in a skin of our very own

Strength

In the arms of another we are twice as strong
but with this extra strength comes intense vulnerability.
Strength is protecting your weaknesses
and occasionally we find ourselves alone against the world,
no one left to watch our back
and infinitely more vulnerable

Within

Behind these eyes I lie
Within this heart I cry
Watch my skin run dry
I know that death is nigh

Today

Say my name and make it new
Open your eyes and see your world in a new way
Listen to the sounds and look at the view
Live in the moment and live for today

found

If you are not lost, does that make you found?

Think Big

If you could change something about the world, anything at all,
What would it be?
Would you solve world hunger?
Undo climate change?
Would you put more emphasis on education?

I would make everyone more compassionate, more considerate.
I would bring us all together to see the things we can do.

Think big, even if it's only in your capacity to act small.
Every little action makes a difference.

war

When the rich make war, it's the poor who die
- Linkin Park

Room

There is room to breathe in the eye of the storm

Speak

Speak only the truth
and never lie
and you will learn

Forest of the found

All that will happen will happen
and all who will fight, will fight.
Those who can see, can act
and those who cannot, need guidance.
The love is everywhere, if only you would see it
The love bursts from within
You are part of the Earth, child
You are part of the Earth.
- The lady of the forest

The ice will melt to the clear of the water
Let it do so

Sink

Be sure to test the ground before you jump a fence,
and always remember the way back to whence you came.
Jump unprepared and you may just sink,
and as you sink in the unknown territory of the other side
you can only hope that someone will arrive to save you.

Mother Earth

We drill into the earth surface and take everything we see of value.
We take anything that is shiny, anything that burns.
We steal the oil that is her blood and we abuse it, and in abusing it we are abusing her.
Mother Earth is not happy with us at all, and I don't blame her in the least.
Dear Humanity, Pull your head in. Now.

Feed One

If you can't feed a Hundred people, just feed one.
- Mother Teresa

Blind

We are blind to what we have
forever reaching for the broken and unattainable

Discontent

Discontentment and jealousy are the downward spirals of humanity.
This thing that we call humanity seems to settle for nothing less than "the best"
The best of what? Of furniture? Of houses? Of clothing?
FOR WHAT?!
To be better than your fellow man?
If you are so keen to be better, SIR, then open your eyes and look around.
You look into the eyes of the broken hearted and tell them you do not care
You look into the eyes of the starving child and tell them you will not share
You look into the eyes of the injured and leave them in their pain
And you don't care for those about you, as long as it's for your own gain.
Look into the eyes of your maker and see all of your cruel, loveless, corrupt and selfish choices staring back at you
We are not put on this planet for money or fashion or Power
We are put on this planet to Love
I look at you and I see only greed.
I see no love.
Where is the love in this cavity you call your heart?
Well let me tell you, it isn't in your wallet.
It isn't in the Rubies.
It isn't in the gold or the silver or the 'riches'.
It isn't in that plasma screen TV
And it will never be in any store.
Love is found in the actions of others, actions of pure and kind intent,
Actions that are taken not for the benefit of oneself.
The world we live in is selfish with discontent.
If only people would learn to be selfless then, perhaps, we could achieve the love and harmony we so seek.

weak

Please don't twist the words I say
please don't create what you're not sure is there
see in the words what you can see I actually mean
so simple as a question and I can try to make it clear
I do not think in words
so my thoughts are hard to speak
please don't make my words sound cruel
it leaves me feeling weak

Heart

The heart wants what the heart wants,

it's not something we can argue with

See me

Perhaps I am too introspective

And maybe I do think too much.

Maybe I should do things with people more often

And perhaps I should 'put myself out there'

But you don’t know loneliness until you’ve felt it in a crowd

And you don’t know abandonment until someone can look into your eyes and walk away.

I am misunderstood and I am introspective

So I spend my time alone.

It doesn’t make me a loser

It doesn’t mean I don't like you

And it doesn’t mean I don’t want to be social

All that it means is that I am alone

And that you don’t see me

Happy

'Tis I who sees you in daylight

'Tis I who sees you at night

'Tis I who watches you wounded

'Tis I who holds you tight

For all that we have is between us

And all that we had is behind

But all we will have is beyond us

It is you I am happy to find

Stranger

I am a stranger in this land of humans
Forever left to my own mind, to my own eyes.
I stand on the outside of this land of humans, as if they were ocean and I could not swim.
Far in the distance, beyond the visible sea, there may be others like me
Other little islands, lost in isolation.
But with no boat I am doomed to forever sit upon my own.
I am alone, but perhaps someone else has a boat

Humsafar - by Majnu

An angel entered my life one day
Unannounced and unsung.
Down from heaven, to this land of grey
She came far, to lift me up.
I knew her not for what she was
Yet somehow she knew me.
She saw in me a part of her
And it opened to the sun.

Though she is not whole yet, there is still pain
So gentle must I be.
For she gave me power, to change our lives
Quite irrevocably.
Now down this path we must journey
Who knows what we will find?
Is there an exit to this labyrinth
Which we created in our minds?

Vortex

Life is like a vortex that swirls around us, it laughs at us, stares at us and forces us into places we do not want to be, then laughs at us some more. 

The smiles of others show through the dust and the dirt and you can only wonder if any are born of true happiness. 

Play your cards right and that mask of allure that is a smile can be yours for as little as minor emotional suppression and lies and hope to whoever you think is in control that your smile is a little more real than that of the poor guy sitting in the gutter.

 But is that life’s gutter? No, that is something of our own creation. A creation of we who wish to control. A man who sits in the gutter is not an unhappy man because he sits there, if that man is unhappy in that gutter he would still be unhappy holding the key to a mansion. The search for wealth and power is not a search worth pursuing. What will you do with it when you achieve it? How happy do you honestly think you will be? Any paper wealth we have is just another piece of paper to float away in the wind. Just another piece of litter, staining the outlook of man. 

We live in the wastelands of our own sorrows and our own ambitions. 

“The best things in life are free” – I can certainly agree, but if the best things in life still leave us hiding the scars of life's vortex then what is the worth of all else?

Compared

To compare a person to another is to challenge the integrity of their personality.
It is to give openings to new insecurities of failures others have displayed.
To be compared to someone you have no even met is a true worry, for you do not know at all what they see in you both.
I don't want to be seen to be 'as caring as' this friend, that would mean I can only care as much as they.
I do not want to be seen as 'as straight-forward' as that friend, for it shows you do not know of the winding paths of my mind.
I do not want to be 'as cool as' this person, for do they really set a standard?
I do not want to be as they are, I want only to be seen for me.
Do not compare me, do not compare to me.
I am my own person.
My personality has integrity.
I am but myself,
I cannot be compared

Spirit

Through blood and bone, we are but spirit

Room of nothing

I'm here again. Returned to this room..
A room of nothing. Of cruel, empty nothingness..
There is no music here and no birds to sing.
Just my struggling breath and my echoing screams.
I am alone here. Always alone.
Perhaps if you were here we could dream ourselves away,
But all I can think of is tragedy, distress and pain.
And all I can feel is the cold touch of the hard floor.
All I want is another person. Someone to sit with. To look at. To talk to.
Someone to hold me.
I am alone
But I do not want to be

More

To see me for me would be a miracle indeed.
But how could you see what I know not in myself?
How can I show you something I don't know how to express?
Why am I this person, why can I not be me?
Or perhaps this is me, perhaps this is all I ever was.
But surely I am more, surely I have better things to show,
Surely I'm a more worthy person then I know how to portray.
It's like I'm wandering a forest of a thousand paths,
Each path branching into another thousand paths endlessly.
If only I could see the tracks then perhaps I wouldn't wander so aimlessly.
Perhaps I wouldn't continue to find myself in this horrible place, in this feeling of insufficiency.
Perhaps I would have more to show for who I am.
But I am this.
No one can see me.
Not for who I am,
Not for who I feel I am,
Not for who I could be.
Just this.
All I hope is that someday you'll see more.

Speak

To speak or sign, to talk is fine
but I can't hear, nor speak, nor whine
But with my hands the world expands,
my words are moves, you'll understand.
Listen. Listen? Watch and see.
Listen, lay your eyes on me.
I am human, same as you,
know my words are real too.

Alone

Alone, Alone, you should have known where you'd ought to be
Alone, Alone, why don't you know you shouldn't be with me
For I am kind if I'm not strong, I don't try to be weak
But here with me you still remain, you who cannot speak.
Tears for tears, a saddened tone, it seems you've never known
Do you know what it is to feel, are you just a drone.
Alone, you're cruel, I hope you know the misery you cause
Alone, you're cruel, please realise you're only closing doors
I see no window open, I see no welcome escape
All I see is you and me, an ever darkening fate
Alone, you know where you should be, it is with only you
Only then you'll chance to see the things we cannot do
Alone, please leave, be with yourself, with Peaceful Bliss leave me
Alone, just go, do not come back, perhaps then I'll be free

If Ever

If ever we were only us
then perhaps we could relax.
If ever we were only us
perhaps we could understand.
If ever I were only me
maybe you'd know me better.
If ever I were only me
maybe happiness would join.

If I were to be only me

I'd challenge all ideas presented

If I were to be only me
I'd blossom and I'd feel free
If you were none but you
who is it you would be
If you were none but you
would you be a friend to me

Oh Life?

Oh great Life, whoever art thou?
Soft yet cruel, loving, on the prowl.
Oh so cruel, so horrible to we,
Trapping us inside ourselves, calling us free.
The grass may be green, but the crop has gone black,
Our hearts still sink, our minds still snap
Oh great life, why can you not be clear,
Why are we pained, why can you not be fair

Breathe

Who is it we want to come home to
Why is it we want to leave
How do we continue living
What's in the air we breathe?
In a world where our transport is poison,
In a world that's abundant in pain,
In a world where our vision is clouded
It's a miracle if we're still sane.
I wish that we'd all come together
I wish all the love could just stay
I wish we could drop all these falsehoods
See the world another way.
It is you that I want to come home to
But you're also the reason I leave
For you I continue living
But there's poison in what I breathe