Room of nothing

I'm here again. Returned to this room..
A room of nothing. Of cruel, empty nothingness..
There is no music here and no birds to sing.
Just my struggling breath and my echoing screams.
I am alone here. Always alone.
Perhaps if you were here we could dream ourselves away,
But all I can think of is tragedy, distress and pain.
And all I can feel is the cold touch of the hard floor.
All I want is another person. Someone to sit with. To look at. To talk to.
Someone to hold me.
I am alone
But I do not want to be

More

To see me for me would be a miracle indeed.
But how could you see what I know not in myself?
How can I show you something I don't know how to express?
Why am I this person, why can I not be me?
Or perhaps this is me, perhaps this is all I ever was.
But surely I am more, surely I have better things to show,
Surely I'm a more worthy person then I know how to portray.
It's like I'm wandering a forest of a thousand paths,
Each path branching into another thousand paths endlessly.
If only I could see the tracks then perhaps I wouldn't wander so aimlessly.
Perhaps I wouldn't continue to find myself in this horrible place, in this feeling of insufficiency.
Perhaps I would have more to show for who I am.
But I am this.
No one can see me.
Not for who I am,
Not for who I feel I am,
Not for who I could be.
Just this.
All I hope is that someday you'll see more.

Speak

To speak or sign, to talk is fine
but I can't hear, nor speak, nor whine
But with my hands the world expands,
my words are moves, you'll understand.
Listen. Listen? Watch and see.
Listen, lay your eyes on me.
I am human, same as you,
know my words are real too.

Alone

Alone, Alone, you should have known where you'd ought to be
Alone, Alone, why don't you know you shouldn't be with me
For I am kind if I'm not strong, I don't try to be weak
But here with me you still remain, you who cannot speak.
Tears for tears, a saddened tone, it seems you've never known
Do you know what it is to feel, are you just a drone.
Alone, you're cruel, I hope you know the misery you cause
Alone, you're cruel, please realise you're only closing doors
I see no window open, I see no welcome escape
All I see is you and me, an ever darkening fate
Alone, you know where you should be, it is with only you
Only then you'll chance to see the things we cannot do
Alone, please leave, be with yourself, with Peaceful Bliss leave me
Alone, just go, do not come back, perhaps then I'll be free

If Ever

If ever we were only us
then perhaps we could relax.
If ever we were only us
perhaps we could understand.
If ever I were only me
maybe you'd know me better.
If ever I were only me
maybe happiness would join.

If I were to be only me

I'd challenge all ideas presented

If I were to be only me
I'd blossom and I'd feel free
If you were none but you
who is it you would be
If you were none but you
would you be a friend to me

Oh Life?

Oh great Life, whoever art thou?
Soft yet cruel, loving, on the prowl.
Oh so cruel, so horrible to we,
Trapping us inside ourselves, calling us free.
The grass may be green, but the crop has gone black,
Our hearts still sink, our minds still snap
Oh great life, why can you not be clear,
Why are we pained, why can you not be fair

Breathe

Who is it we want to come home to
Why is it we want to leave
How do we continue living
What's in the air we breathe?
In a world where our transport is poison,
In a world that's abundant in pain,
In a world where our vision is clouded
It's a miracle if we're still sane.
I wish that we'd all come together
I wish all the love could just stay
I wish we could drop all these falsehoods
See the world another way.
It is you that I want to come home to
But you're also the reason I leave
For you I continue living
But there's poison in what I breathe