Compared

To compare a person to another is to challenge the integrity of their personality.
It is to give openings to new insecurities of failures others have displayed.
To be compared to someone you have no even met is a true worry, for you do not know at all what they see in you both.
I don't want to be seen to be 'as caring as' this friend, that would mean I can only care as much as they.
I do not want to be seen as 'as straight-forward' as that friend, for it shows you do not know of the winding paths of my mind.
I do not want to be 'as cool as' this person, for do they really set a standard?
I do not want to be as they are, I want only to be seen for me.
Do not compare me, do not compare to me.
I am my own person.
My personality has integrity.
I am but myself,
I cannot be compared

Spirit

Through blood and bone, we are but spirit

Room of nothing

I'm here again. Returned to this room..
A room of nothing. Of cruel, empty nothingness..
There is no music here and no birds to sing.
Just my struggling breath and my echoing screams.
I am alone here. Always alone.
Perhaps if you were here we could dream ourselves away,
But all I can think of is tragedy, distress and pain.
And all I can feel is the cold touch of the hard floor.
All I want is another person. Someone to sit with. To look at. To talk to.
Someone to hold me.
I am alone
But I do not want to be

More

To see me for me would be a miracle indeed.
But how could you see what I know not in myself?
How can I show you something I don't know how to express?
Why am I this person, why can I not be me?
Or perhaps this is me, perhaps this is all I ever was.
But surely I am more, surely I have better things to show,
Surely I'm a more worthy person then I know how to portray.
It's like I'm wandering a forest of a thousand paths,
Each path branching into another thousand paths endlessly.
If only I could see the tracks then perhaps I wouldn't wander so aimlessly.
Perhaps I wouldn't continue to find myself in this horrible place, in this feeling of insufficiency.
Perhaps I would have more to show for who I am.
But I am this.
No one can see me.
Not for who I am,
Not for who I feel I am,
Not for who I could be.
Just this.
All I hope is that someday you'll see more.

Speak

To speak or sign, to talk is fine
but I can't hear, nor speak, nor whine
But with my hands the world expands,
my words are moves, you'll understand.
Listen. Listen? Watch and see.
Listen, lay your eyes on me.
I am human, same as you,
know my words are real too.

Alone

Alone, Alone, you should have known where you'd ought to be
Alone, Alone, why don't you know you shouldn't be with me
For I am kind if I'm not strong, I don't try to be weak
But here with me you still remain, you who cannot speak.
Tears for tears, a saddened tone, it seems you've never known
Do you know what it is to feel, are you just a drone.
Alone, you're cruel, I hope you know the misery you cause
Alone, you're cruel, please realise you're only closing doors
I see no window open, I see no welcome escape
All I see is you and me, an ever darkening fate
Alone, you know where you should be, it is with only you
Only then you'll chance to see the things we cannot do
Alone, please leave, be with yourself, with Peaceful Bliss leave me
Alone, just go, do not come back, perhaps then I'll be free

If Ever

If ever we were only us
then perhaps we could relax.
If ever we were only us
perhaps we could understand.
If ever I were only me
maybe you'd know me better.
If ever I were only me
maybe happiness would join.

If I were to be only me

I'd challenge all ideas presented

If I were to be only me
I'd blossom and I'd feel free
If you were none but you
who is it you would be
If you were none but you
would you be a friend to me

Oh Life?

Oh great Life, whoever art thou?
Soft yet cruel, loving, on the prowl.
Oh so cruel, so horrible to we,
Trapping us inside ourselves, calling us free.
The grass may be green, but the crop has gone black,
Our hearts still sink, our minds still snap
Oh great life, why can you not be clear,
Why are we pained, why can you not be fair

Breathe

Who is it we want to come home to
Why is it we want to leave
How do we continue living
What's in the air we breathe?
In a world where our transport is poison,
In a world that's abundant in pain,
In a world where our vision is clouded
It's a miracle if we're still sane.
I wish that we'd all come together
I wish all the love could just stay
I wish we could drop all these falsehoods
See the world another way.
It is you that I want to come home to
But you're also the reason I leave
For you I continue living
But there's poison in what I breathe

Shadows

What can be seen through blinding, unending tears but the blur of motion and shadows?
How would the world have ever been beautiful?
What can be heard over the cries and sobs of those who share your pain?
What can relieve us but the lack of oxygen from such rapid breathing that lulls us into a sleep unshaken by anything but nightmares?
Who can wake us from such terrors, pull us from the dark?
Who can stop the cries, who can stop the fear?
Who can save us from such endless misery?
Who can recover the fragments of our minds?
Who can rescue our hearts?
Is it you?
Or are you just another shadow in the light

Someone

Someone to love, someone to hold,
someone to support me in acts that are bold.
Someone to love me, someone to care,
someone who i know is open to share.
Someone who's happy, achieving their goals,
someone who looks for a meeting of souls.
Someone who warms me when I'm feeling cold,
A strongest of loves even when we are old.

Thrive

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I guess I wasn't right for you.
But while lemons are sour,
Candy is sweet
and there's somebody out there I just have to meet.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I guess I wasn't right for you.
But while my heart is beating,
While the world is alive,
and while people need helping, My love with thrive.